Happy freaking Monday peeps! Can I just say I HATE the damn time change! I mean yes, I do enjoy the extra hour of light, in the evening. BUT...this getting up an hour early crap is literally, for the birds! Ok I am done bitching...
I am going to touch on why I do not weigh myself. Actually why I can't. Growing up overweight, did some major damage to my self esteem and confidence. If I were to get on the scale once a week, it would take me back to a very bad place. I am 5'9 and curvy. This means that lovely little # will NEVER be low. It is in the low 150's or maybe evn the high 140's, I am not 100% sure. BUT...seeing that number, would make me freak out. I would be like, "how can I fit in a size 4, when that number is so high". SO...I go for the whole, "the proof is in the pudding" thing! I serioulsy think if I owned a scale, I would be on it ALL the time. So I just can't go there. I am in too good of a place. What works for me, may not work for someone else, I get that. AND 150 pounds on me, might look TOTALLY different on someone else. I just refuse to let some little machine dictate how I feel. Hell each freaking scale is different. And hello, a lovely bowel movement or lack of one, can make that number fluctuate big time! So instead of weighing, I choose to go by how my clothes fit. Every Saturday I try on a specific pair of jeans, to gage if I have lost, gained or stayed the same. It is a pair of NON stretch jeans. They are my first pair of 7 jeans, from years ago. They are size 28. This truly keeps me in check. I can remember trying them on 2 years ago and they were so tight, I seriously ripped the seam on the sides AND at the zipper. OMG it as awful. I had to lay down on the bed, just to get them zipped. Talk about a wake-up call! Now these lovely jeans are loose! YAY!!! That was one of my first very memorable NSV'S! I also use a pair of capri pants that have zero stretch in them. The reason I choose non-stretch clothes to gage is because they can't lie to me...LOL!
Now on to the cleanse. Well the cleanse and I were just not meant to be. I was SO f*cking miserable. I mean the gas pains and bloating that I had was GOD AWFUL! I even stayed home from work one day. It just wasn't worth it to me. I do not feel like I failed, I feel like I just can't do the whole cleanse/fiber in your face, kind of thing. I am not a "regular" person to begin with, so adding all that fiber in and not being able to go "potty" was killin me! I also had a sinus infection, which didn't help. I think I need to stick with what works for me, eating healthy and clean and everything in moderation. After I was off for a whole day, I felt so much better. I did make it 3 days, so maybe that benifited me in some small way. Once I was off, I still ate really great food, I mean I had it on hand, from cleanse prepping! But I had so much more energy, no cramping, no headache and no GAS! YAY FOR ME! I wish all of you doing it, the best of luck and much success. I am happy I tried it and truly did stick to it, for as long as I could.
Much love to you all,